THE SEVENTH DIAMOND

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Walk Away...





Today is the first time that I have believed that I should walk away from this blog. That I wondered what I am doing with this. I've seen it as a reflection of what is best in me. What do you see? It appears my best isn't quite enough right now. I've had a bad day. A crazy awful day.

54 comments:

mommy24treasures said...

oh I see you as a blessing as sunshine as a rainbow Please never walk away.
I am sorry for your bad day, I send you warm wishes and prayers.

Lisa said...

Sorry you are having a tough day. Take what time you need. ((((Big hug)))) I really enjoy coming to your blog your are very uplifting. Today I lift you up!!

LaLa said...

{{{HUGS}}} my friend. You are defintely a ray of sunshine to all who know you. You lift others up when they are down so know we are here for you!!

Steffie B. said...

You are my sunshine.....I only know of "one" issue that is bothering you......I say let it pass.....people can get too anal about things!

We love you girlfriend.... ;)

Sherri & John said...

Take a breather for as long as you need, but please don't walk away. We all have had bad days on this journey, and I send you warm wishes that things get better for you. You lifted me up on a bad day and I know we are all here for you. Big Hugs.

Anonymous said...

i'm a person who cks your blog each day and love it. your blog shows what a caring person you are and you give strength to people who are waiting like you. sometimes you need to step back for awhile and see something for what it is and you have a great many fans who read your blog. i'm a gramma waiting for lauren elizabeth and read your blog thru my daughters web site. the people in this community are so great and so are you!!!...linda

Janet said...

YOU, my dear, are a ray of sunshine in this blog world. You are ALWAYS there to encourage EVERYONE. I have seen nothing but encouragement and love coming from your blog. I am sorry you're having a yucky day. Praying for you, sweet friend.

kerri said...

Please don't let this get you down, I love stopping by for a visit.
Your blog is friendly, warm and inspirational. I think I can speak for a lot of fellow bloggers, you'd be missed.
((hugs))
:O)

Kayce said...

Oh RMJ....((((((((((HUGS))))))))) I understand the need to walk away, but know that you are SPECIAL and to see you not here would be hard on a lot of us. Take a break, we will be here for you...

Mr.Brian said...

Please do not walk away from your blogging.I always look forward to reading your blog.
You are always an insperation to me and I am sure so many others.
You are a prayer worrier for so very many as well.
So take a deep breath,let it out.
Lay your hurts and frustrations before the Lord and tomorrow will be a much better day.
Please know we all care for you and wish you the very best.
Blessing ,prayers and a HUG!!!
Mr.Brian

Roy and Lori said...

We all have those days. Stay positive
and remain focused! It will get
better!


p.s. You are truly the "QUEEN"
here in bloggyland. We visit
your blog for reassurance and
support. WE NEED YOU !!!

Take Care My Friend

Michelle said...

Oh no! I understand the need for a break, but I do hope you come back. I would miss your blog very, very much if it went away. Sorry you are having such a rough time.

Joannah said...

I don't know why you're feeling down about your blog. You have done so much to encourage others and lift them up. If you've experienced any criticism, let it go. You are helping others by sharing of yourself here.

Donna & Joe said...

Kim, I sure hope you didn't receive any nasty comments that got you down. If you did, please don't let them chase you away.

I had a bad experience last year with one of my posts and it really had me down.

If you need to take a break, please come back...you have a lot of friends waiting her for you.

Donna :)

adele and dan said...

What you have outside you counts less than what you have inside you..B.C.Forbes
It's ok to walk away if you need to, but know you will be missed. If you feel you want to come back, we will be here waiting for you with the light on;)

Lynn said...

Cheer up sweetie! Take a day off! Being everyone's cheerleader can be very tiring!!

Rest and then talk it out with someone close... I had a bad couple of days too, when school started... I hung with my girls and sorted it out.

Hang in there!

LIZ said...

Don't walk away!!! I'm being totally selfish in that request...I so look forward to reading your blog and all your support and kindness to everyone. I've been away at the cottage for the past month with no internet...just starting to catch up on blogs...you're the second blog I've caught up on and I would so miss not checking in with you daily. Sorry you're having a tough day...hope tomorrow brings better things.
Thank you so much for the blog award.
Sending you a big HUG!!!

GWEN OATSVALL said...

don't go anywhere ... i love hanging out with you and hearing what is on your mind ... blogging keeps me sane and sometimes drives me insane... hang in there lots of people out there need your jabberings, wisdom, funnies, encouragement, etc ...

a&mg said...

Sorry for the bad day. Sometimes a short vacation from the blog world is really helpful. Take a break if you need to--we'll be around when you return.

Lisa said...

I hope you don't walk away. Your blog is so uplifting and you reach out and try to help others so often. I look forward to reading your blog. I hope no one said anything to upset you.

Juliette said...

I see a glass of wine and some ice cream and/or chocolate...
I see a nice day off pampering yourself to the spa and going shopping...
You give so much to others, you need time, rest and treats for you.
Hope you'll feel better soon.

Two Kayaks said...

So...you need me to beat somebody up? You need me to give someone an early morning detention? Just name it, my friend. I am strong and bitter this week and ready to take on whomever or whatever is making you doubt yourself. You, my sweet friend, are loved.

Journey to Lilly! said...

awww I have so many times enjoyed your blog. I'm sorry your down. I send a big squeezy hug to you :)
Kim

Jeff and Michelle said...

You and your blog are very uplifting and encouraging. You reach out to others even beyond your blog. I don't know what is going on, but I pray you are encouraged and inspired soon!

Verna said...

Oh, honey, hang in there. We all have bad days. I'll pray that God sends you some light and hope to shed in this dark time. Hugs from the Blog Fairy.

Ms. Dragonfly said...

This is a common thread going around. People going on 'breaks' etc. I have thought about walking away too. But then I think of posting something and off I go again. I find my blog is changing more into a reflection of me not only adoption, but other aspects too. I like that.
Sorry your day is bad.
But I understand what you mean.
hugs.

K1 said...

RMJ, It hurts so much to "hear" you so dejected. I wish I had the power to fix whatever is wrong.

You are always such a source of encouragement for everyone else her in cyberland, and we all love you and your blog very much.

I'm praying for you. I've also adapted this prayer for you from the book "Prayers for Life";

"She needs your comfort, God.

She needs to feel your strong arms embracing her.

She doesn't need wise words or brilliant truth--just be there for her now.

Remind her of your love for her.

Tell her everything's going to be all right.

Assure her again that you know what she's going through, because you've been there.

You have felt her pain, and now you can share it.

Thank you for sitting with her throught his crisis.

I praise you for your awesome love for her."

If you need a break, take it. But remember that we are out here thinking of and supporting you.

amy said...

your blog has been such a blessing and encouragement..Take some time off. Praying for you!

A Special Family said...

I will let you know a little secret, I feel like this as well. I have talked with a good friend who has been a blogger for years and we came up with a few theories why. I'll email you my friend!
(((BIG HUGS)))

Mom of 5 said...

Take some time. Sorry it was a bad day. I love your blog -you obviously would be missed.
Sending only good vibes !

Nancy said...

RMJ - You have the biggest heart in blog world. You are continually organizing ways to bring the blog community together, and without you we may not survive.
Our blogs are what I feel is the bandage to the incredible waits we are experiencing. They barely cover the wound, but help us feel better, knowing they are there. Don't give up!
I hope today and every day to come is ALOT better for you.

Noemi said...

You are truly a blessing and inspiration to me... You just find the perfect words to encourage anyone at it's lowest! Take some time off but please do not walk away... But if you decide to do so it is understandable. I have not met you and all I see in this blog is your outpoor of Love to anyone in need. If there is anything that I can do to help please, please let me know...

Sending you BIG CYBER ((((((HUGS)))))

Truly Blessed said...

Kim, I'm so sorry you're feeling down. We all understand. This adoption rollercoaster is not fun and it's not for the faint of heart.

You have shown to be one of the most caring bloggers I've read (and even had the pleasure of meeting!), and I know it has to be emotionally exhausting to look after all of us, remember birthdays and special events and LID anniversarys....

When it gets to be too much, take a break. As much time as you need. If, when you come back, it's still too much, make that decision then.

In the meantime, I think we W.MI gals need to do a GNO. I hear a bottle of wine calling our names -- can you hear it too?

Have a wonderful, relaxing day today. Know that you are appreciated and loved here in our cozy little community!

Dannye said...

I think we are all falling down that dark hole of depression, when each month instead of the time getting shorter, it increases more and more, the wait time analysis showing such sad long wait times, but when that head goes down into that hot deep sand, just try with all your might to remember your daughter just isn't ready to come home yet, but soon enough my friend it will happen (goodness I hope so)....

Mark and Rebecca said...

I am so sorry about your horrible day. You clearly have a gift for encouraging others. Now may you be encouraged in return. (((hugs))

Lynn~Somewhere In The Sun said...

I LOVE your blog. I always know that there is inspiration and kindness there. I do, however, understand the need for a rest. I'll be praying that you come to the best decision for you and your family.

Jewels of My Heart said...

I am so sorry you are hurting... ((((BIG HUG))))))) You are always there for all of us... to laugh with us, celebrate with us, cry with us.... You are such a blessing to each of us in our little bloggerland... Yes, we do see the best of you, sweet, wonderful you... you are sweet, kind, loyal, caring, thoughtful, fun and you go the extra mile for everyone. Please let us know if we can be there for you in any way... Lifting you up in prayer...
God's Peace
Daleea

T & R McGrath said...

Hello, this is my first time visitng your blog, I found you through Kerri from Bugs and Bows. Even with this being my first visit I can see that you are loved by so many.

Sometimes you have to step back and take a deep breath and just stop everything, give yourself a moment to reflect.

During this journey I have had many of those days, a couple of months ago I had so many emotions going on at one time, we had just received the referral of our son and was on top of the world, I couldn't imagine anything bringing off my happy high. Then it came to a complete stop, my furry daughter of almost 13 years died suddently of lung cancer. It was the worst day of my life, actualy it was the worst couple of months of my life. I didn't think I would ever be happy even the thought of going to bring my son home made me sad. Bonnie was more then a dog, she was what got me through years of fertility failures, watching friends and family having babies and me still waiting. But coming home to her and knowing she was waiting there with a tail wagging, and kisses for me made me happy. I wanted her to be a part of our new life with our son. When she was taken away and chunck of me want with her and I won't get that back.

But one day I stopped crying, stopped hiding from the world. I took a walk to the beach and stopped everything, I just sat there took a deep breath and sat alone.

Am not really sure what happened but I just felt better, I was able to laugh at Bonnie's cuteness and look forward to the future with our son and know that I am so happy and lucky that I had her in my life and lucky now that I will have my son.

I know this probably didn't help, but wanted to share!

Hang in there!

Tracy
www.journey-ofthe-heart.blogspot.com

Carolyn said...

RMJ-
I think of your blog as a sort of ministry, actually. You are definitely fulfilling a need that is out there in the adoption community- esp. for those who are still waiting. Having said that, you cannot draw water when the well is dry. Fill yourself up again. Get refreshed. Then come back.

mommy24treasures said...

I hope with the morning came a new strength. I hope you are ok. Thinking of you...

shelley said...

I,too, am one that checks your blog everyday. You are always so helpful and bring the Lord to the front of our minds. I understand you can't do that if you are struggling with problems. Please seek comfor that only the Lord can provide. Please know that we will be praying for anything that you need, including time away from the blog world. Many hugs and prayers coming your way.

Beverly said...

Hope things clear up soon. {{{Hugs}}} to you.

Beverly

Princess of Everything (and then some) said...

I cannot find your email address. I wonder if you will even see it with all of the other comments.

You are a popular lady. I do not know what is wrong but I do know that God is good and there are those here that love you and want to hold up your hands during this time. All you have to do is let us know.

You are in my prayers right now.

Anonymous said...

Your blog - and the care you show for others - have made me laugh, smile, think and, when you told Jude's story, moved me to tears. On bad 'waiting' days I knew that your blog was on of the places I could go to receive messages of hope and peace. Thank you!
On Monday I received the referral of my daughter. Today I received more recent photos of her beautiful, smiling face. Hang in there. Everything else pales into insignificance! (((Hugs))) Lindsay

Rachael said...

We all have bad days. Hugs for whatever you're going through. You're a smart woman...you'll figure it all out.

Tracy said...

Well, I haven't had much time to blog lately .... but, I must say, I LOVE your blog. Tomorrow is another day ...

Ashley said...

I've got something for you ... come and see!!! :)

theghelertertwins.blogspot.com said...

Oh I hope you know what a breath of freshair you are. I enjoying coming here for inspiration and sometimes just a "lift". You are always so kind and especially considerate of those going through a tough time or need a little boost. You've been a great support for so many. We're here for you too sweetie. All you have to do is give a shout. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Don't leave...Well, I hope you don't leave. Sometimes we have to do what we need to do though. Sending you big hugs.. Rony

kris said...

I can understand that pull and that questioning... I seem to do this so often-

Hang in there. We'll support you either way. Hope you'll stay though.

mrs incredible said...

Nothing but love for you! Whomever had negative things to say needs to find another outlet, because I love it hear and always find comfort in your sweet posts.

mrs incredible said...

ouch, I meant I love it HERE, not here. too early in the morning.

secret agent said...

That nasty anon didn't visit you did she???? take k2 up on her offer.... she's quite good.

Lori said...

((((Hug)))

Kimber said...

Kim,

I have no idea what would make you feel this way but your blog is such a vehicle of giving, inspiration and encouragement. It is so "other oriented." I love it. Please don't ever walk away. You bring so much joy and sunshine to so many people. Please, e-mail me if you ever want to vent:)

Kim