Scan Results Are Not Good.

We received a phone call yesterday from my Grandmother's doctor. The PET Scan results are not good. Active fast growing cells were seen in the mass in my Grandmother's lung and two other smaller spots were discovered. A biopsy is scheduled for Monday, but it looks like we are dealing with cancer.
We are having our traditional boiled shrimp dinner together tonight as a family. We all know the situation, including the children. I will blog more when I get back home. These next few days are precious to me as I do not know how my Grandmother will be doing the next time I am able to return home.
Thank you for all of the prayers and comments. They keep me going.

Update on My Grandmother...

Yesterday was a very disappointing day. I met my Grandmother for lunch at her house so she wouldn't have to get her test results alone. We called the doctor's office several times at the time they told us to and no one answered their phone. We finally left a message as their recording requested and waited for them to call back. Their message said they would call back by 5pm and no one called back.
I cannot tell you how frustrated that makes me. When you deal with people's lives, I can't believe that you wouldn't answer your phone or return someone's call who followed your instructions and is waiting for what could be life or death information.
So, today is a replay of yesterday. We don't know anything. We hope to know by the end of the day.
I want to thank you all for your kind words. I read your comments several times yesterday. They were the little pick me ups that I needed to keep smiling and acting like everything was going to be ok.

New Starfish Baby Photos!

Amanda sent some more photos of the darling Starfishes in some of the outfits that we sent. I know that her home is now full and she cannot accept any new babies. I can't figure out how to make these larger, when I click on them, they get VERY large, but hopefully some of you can recognize the outfits that you sent and a wear a big smile today.

A Big Day...Please Pray for us.

We celebrated my Grandmother's 79th Birthday last Sunday. It was bitter sweet for us. I am here in Kansas City because they have found a one inch growth in my Grandmother's lung. I am here because I cannot be anywhere else.
I was born into a family of 4 women on my Mother's side. 4 women who had always been together and did what it took to love and support one another unconditionally. When I was 16 years old, my mother died. It was absolutely devastating. My Grandmother couldn't look at me for over 2 years and not cry. We were a very wounded 3, but we went on.
My Mother is always with us. We visit her grave together and we talk about her. None of my children knew her, that is a great loss to me.
Today we find out if the growth is cancerous or not. I cannot bear the news to be anything but good, neither can my Aunt. We are not ready to be 2. My oldest sons would always remember, Eli would have photos, Sophia will have nothing. This is a great loss to me.
She went to work today knowing that today will decide her future. I am going to see if I can meet her at her house for lunch to be with her when she makes the call to find out the results.
Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Today could change my family forever.