Please Keep Us In Your Prayers...My Grandmother is not doing well.

I am sorry I haven't been able to blog very much. I am in Kansas City and my Grandmother is not doing well. Her cancer has spread to her spine and she is in considerable pain. The medication for the pain makes her nautious, so she won't eat. She weighs around 83 pounds right not. Her pain medication makes her loopy, so she requires 24 hour a day care which my two aunt's have been trying to provide. We are now wondering if she needs hospitalization because we are worried about dehydration and malnutrition as she won't eat anything unless you feed it to her and even then it's next to nothing. We have a difficult time ahead of us.

Christmas Eve...Let the Madness Begin!

Well...here we go! This morning I am leaving for my FIL's home to celebrate Christmas Eve and Christmas morning. On Christmas morning I am driving 2 hours to be back home by noon to celebrate at home with all of our children. I make Christmas dinner and we open presents, then it's off to Tim's Aunt's home to celebrate with our extended family. And then bright and early on the day after Christmas, we are loading up the minivan and heading to Kansas City to visit with my family.

I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and thank you for your friendship, support and prayers over this past year. Your cards and photos of your beautiful children are displayed so happily in our home. God Bless You!

My Daughter is Alive this Christmas...

This is a very hard Christmas for me this year. We are in a place in our journey where I know my daughter is alive and I am pretty certain she is in her orphanage waiting. I cannot tell you how emotional I have been over this. The tears have just overwhelmed me. I pray that God sends angels to comfort her, I pray there is heat in her orphanage, I pray that somehow she knows she is loved. I pray she holds on. I pray that someone who passes by her feels the need to smile at her and hold her. I hope that a mother from somewhere has sent a box or left a donation with warm clothing and blankets so she has something to keep her warm. Everything feels wrong, I have her stocking but cannot hang it. I was too late to order her 3rd 'Waiting for Sophia' ornament, so now I have none. I have several Christmas dresses because I don't know what size she will wear and black patten Mary Janes..I was so certain she would be home this year.
I hope that from across the world, somehow she senses me....like I sometimes sense her.
I love you babygirl, hold on.