Happy Birthday to My Son..

This morning I talked to God on my way to work. There were tears running down my cheeks. I thanked Him for blessing me 15 years ago today with the gift of my oldest son Zachary. I thanked Him for the miracle of his smile and the warmth in his eyes. It has been a priviledge to be his mother. One of the greatest blessings in my life... to walk beside him through his life, to be the one who held his small hand and guided him. He is my sunshine. My first pure love.

Normally I spend my sons birthday with him. But not today. Today I had lunch, just lunch. I sat accross the table at Olive Garden looking into the face of a young man. My boy was gone and there was this beautiful young man in his place. Just lunch, because I had to work and tonight he has his first hockey practice which can't be missed. He has his own life now with practices and commitments to be met. His life isn't meshed with mine anymore.

That's ok (I type that while I'm crying), because I have cherished every minute. I have hugged and kissed and cuddled. I have read books, watched all of the Disney movies and sang the itsy bitsy spider. The boy lives forever in my heart. The young man and I begin our next adventure together. We still walk side by side, but he opens the doors now and carries things for me. We talk about current events, relationships and life. He's driving me in the car. When I looked accross the table at him today, I knew that things were never going to be the same. Somehow today marked a new era for us.

To my son who sometimes reads my blog:
I love you . I love you. I am so proud and blessed. I remember being in the hospital when you were first born and watching you as you slept and I knew that the most incredible part of my life was beginning. But I had no idea how amazing and beautiful you would be and how much I could love another. You are such an outstanding young man. I love spending time with you talking and laughing. I am so impressed with your wit and intelligence. In you I see the makings of a great man. You carry my heart with you everywhere you go. For the third time...I love you.