THE SEVENTH DIAMOND

Sunday, January 21, 2007

I Know I'm In Here Somewhere...Making Time To Find Myself


My heart is overwhelmed right now with thoughts that Zachary is going to be gone to college in 3 years and that my time left with him is limited. I am worried about being a good stepmother to Katelyn and focusing on her while she is with us. I am actively involved with Tyler, making sure he's getting his homework done on time and he is staying at reading grade level. I am dedicated to Eli being healthy and challenged intellectually and physically. These are all things that I should be focused on as a mother and I really enjoy the role I play in each of my children's lives. I never want to miss a school or sporting event. I always want them to feel loved and 100 percent supported.

But lately, I have been feeling like an outlet with two power strips plugged into it. I need to set some personal goals for myself and make the time to achieve them. I have been reading other women's blogs about the excellent books they are reading and I need to be doing the same. I need to make a list of the books that I am going to read this year. On one of my favorite blogs, The Dragonfly and Ladybug, she talks about her writing and I need to be writing too. There is time in my day that is not being used productively. I should be outside more walking and exercising. I have got to get a plan so that I don't feel like I'm getting lost. Me Kimberley, the woman. I know I'm in here somewhere.


15 comments:

Elizabeth said...

I totally support you and your plan to 'get a plan'. You can give so much more if you fill your own cup first. The best way I've heard it described is like on the plane when they tell you to put your own oxygen mask on before helping the rest of your family. Can't help others unless you help yourself. Go for it.

Steffie B. said...

I find time for myself as well. Working out, taking walks when the weather is nice, meeting up with a girl friend, reading, when I have the time, which is not much lately I'm afraid....getting good rest and trying to eat relatively healthy. Make a plan.... ;)

Beckyb said...

Wow - great words - I echo that cry over here too - I LOVE my kids, but they can also zap the life right out of you - take care of yourself - and yes, you need some time for YOU but, like I said - I need to remember the same thing!

Beckyb said...

By the way - yes, you are welcome to add me to your blog links!!

Amanda said...

You can post my Blog no problem

Love and laughter,
Amanda from Starfish

Doris & Dan Clark said...

It must be hard to find time for yourself when there are so many others who require you.

Keep smilin!

roffe said...

Hi! Just say hello from Norway! (*_*)

Carolyn said...

Good luck with the plan!
I'm in a constant struggle of finding time for myself, my work, my family, and my other interests- but I know that if I didn't try to juggle all this, then I would be a lot less happy with myself.

Tawni said...

I could have written that post...I have felt much the same way for a long time as well. I with you here - I am off to make a plan. Thanks for the motivation. Beautiful picture, by the way!

roffe said...

Thanks for your comments in my humble blog...uym

Panda-Mom said...

Thanks for visiting! I love meeting new bloggers with Chinese daughters, Believers and scrapbookers! What a great mix, huh? I just started blogging in July and have enjoyed finding so many families with Chinese daughters or who are waiting as well as being Christians. This is so much fun!

Panda-Mom said...

Question about another blog??? I linked to "Never Too Many" from your blog and wanted to leave a comment about the "Brown-eyed Girl" pics (our playgroup did the SAME thing and it is too funny to find someone else in cyberspace that did it, too!), but when I try to comment on her page it says that comments are enabled. Do you know how I can comment on her? Thank you so much for your help!!! ; )

redmaryjanes said...

Panda-Mom,
I went over to Never Too Many and left a message for her that you are trying to leave a comment. I didn't have any problems, but she does have comment moderation on which means your comment would not be displayed until she reviewed it and allowed it to post.
Hope this helps.

-Kimberley (redmaryjanes)

tracy said...

I have those same thoughts. I just wish there were 34 hours in one day, that would be helpful.

TaiwanMommy said...

Girlfriend, I'm with you. It sounds like you are role locked - with not much opportunity to express yourself outside of that role of mom. As important and central as that role is, it's tough to have every moment devoted to that same repetoire of expectations and behaviors. I'm going to be seeking other groups, maybe twice a week to participate in. Too bad we don't like next door to eachother!

hugs-
Val