Sunday, January 13, 2008

Re-Committing Myself to My Daughter...

I posted this graphic several months ago and my friend Jennifer from 'My Three Sons and a little China Girl' has kept it on her sidebar ever since. I think it helps her endure this uncertain wait. I'm going to join her and keep in on my sidebar. I would love to see it on yours.
I have had to take some time and step back before and re-commit myself to Sophia, visualize my daughter as best as I can.
I look at my sons and I ask myself how long would I wait? What would I endure? The answer is forever. I would give my life. The same is for Sophia. She is my child even though I cannot see or touch her, there will be a day when I can.
So, about this insanity and projections of years. It's not what I want, but I'll do it. The answer is forever.
Please hold on. I know you will.

33 comments:

Kim said...

I am with you girly...
I am putting it on my side bar..
LOVE IT..
And I am here waiting with you FOREVER...
Hugs to you.....
Have a Great Evening...

LaLa said...

Absolutely...I look at Annslee and no matter how long I would have waited..and I will for Malia too. We will all have our children home!!

C's Mom said...

Yup, I'll have to update ye olde sidebar soon.

That is a certain message of truth.

jennifer said...

What a great post. I LOVE that quote. Sometimes I forget it's there, but then it will catch my eye and remind me why I am enduring this wait. I am doing what I know I am supposed to. Thanks for reminding me yet again! As long as it takes!

Jewels of My Heart said...

My Dear Kimberly.... first I want to give you a hug..... let you weep if you need to and then tell you the absolute truth.... this too shall pass. God's timing is perfect. He is on the throne and has a plan for you and your Sophia. Your wait, this journey, the heartache, the frustration, the helpless feelings... they are not in vain... Weeping may endure for a night but joy cometh in the morning. I know this will be a long, stormy night. I also know that Jesus will be there with you. When the winds start raging and try to tear you from your destined path, He will hold you steadfast... When your heart is so heavy it feels as if you cannot take another step, He will carry you. When your hope, your faith has dwendled to the smallest of embers..... He will move mountains.
I know how hard it is to wait to hold your child in your arms. But I also know that you do not want just any child. You want YOUR daughter Sophia. As hard as it is, as difficult as it will be I also know that your dossier will be in the matching room the precise moment that YOUR Sophia's documents are there ready to be matched to you. One day you WILL hold her in your arms. You will look into her eyes and you will thank God for the wait... you will praise Him for not allowing you to be matched one moment sooner for you will know that if you had, you wouldn't be holding YOUR child in your arms, she wouldn't be with HER Mama.... she is oh, so worth the wait. And oh, how she will need her Mama and Daddy and big brothers.
You are her Mom and I have no doubt that you will do what ever it takes to bring her home to you... including the most difficult task of all.... waiting.
Stay the coarse dear friend.... your destination is worth a thousand journeys of infinate days.....
God's Speed

Paula said...

I am going to put it on my sidebar. My reasons are a bit different. When we were planning on adopting, I had a bunch of people try to discourage me and I knew in my heart that this was the direction God was leading me. Soon, we will be embarking on another adoption journey, so I will need to look at that saying and know in my heart that I am doing Gods will for my life.
Thanks for posting it!

~Amy~ said...

Ok after reading that and listening to the song...yup, thats a tear! Sophia will have a wonderful family to come home to and I know she will love you all forever and ever....

Hugs and Kisses!!

Kim said...

Kimberley.. I have to know.. DO YOU make all of these headers???
Wonderful job ... I LOVE Them..

t~ said...

Love the quote! It's terrific!

Anonymous said...

Hpw sweet you Are! I just xhcked in to my blog and saw that you had posted and sent me an award! I am so honored by your generous description and the award! Thank you!

I love the post about your dad too :). That was really cute.

The waiting is really, really worth it!!

Michelle said...

It's going in my sidebar too. Because I am having such a hard time of it lately. Such a hard time.

Gail said...

Thank you for this post Kimberley and I'm also putting it on my sidebar. Your header is a quote that my Dad has taught me and he lives my those words every day. I am also re-committing myself to my child of China. The months and years will pass and I will wait however long it takes. You brought up such a thoughtful question, would I wait this long for my children that I have now? Of course I would. We are in this for the long haul, however long it may take! Take care. :)

crazylady said...

tick tock break the clock

some of the best things happen while you're waiting for it to happen

Dannye said...

and I am holding on with you....just know we can do it if we all stick together and endure this unbearable wait together!!

4D said...

True and real reminder.

Keep smilin!

Deb said...

Yup I'm in it forever too. I'll keep on keepin on.

Kim N Jeff said...

I am right there with you and will wait as long as it takes..

I belive that God has a plan for us all and this is just a test of his to see how we all endure...

Nikki said...

SO beautiful, Kimberley!
What a wonderful reminder of the fact that NO obstacle is too difficult, no wait too long when it comes to our children...we would do anything...Wait forever if we had to.
XO

polkadot said...

...and when the wait is over, all time and space fade away into that blurry time before she was there. I promise.

Christy said...

LOve that and I loved your committment to Sophia. It is true that you woudl wait a lifetime for your boy and the same goes for your little girl. I woudl have waited forever for my Mia and I woudl do it again if I had to. She is part of my heart and always has been!!!

Sophia will be here soon and she will be all you ever imagined!!

Christy :)

kerri said...

We were told China probably wouldn't allow us to adopt due to serious health issues.
Never for one second did we let any obstacle stand in the path of our dream of a family.
I never forget this as I look at my girls.
Your positive thinking is inspiring, Sophia will be blessed.
Beautiful post Kimberley.

Angie said...

Thank you so much for this! I am going to put it on my side bar as well. I am with you...I will wait as long as it takes even though it isn't what I want or like! We will get through this.

Angie
www.amothersplace.blogspot.com

day by day said...

Such a beautiful quote! My heart is with all of you Moms that are stuck in this long wait. Hugs to you all!!

Anonymous said...

Hi Kimberly,

Let me begin by just coming right out and say I'm a "lurker". :) Yes, it's true, I found your site by stumbling onto someone's site off the Story of You!!! I am a huge Story of You supporter as I am a Mom of five...my three youngest all coming to my family through adoption and our beloved China.

I'm an oldtimer:) Our journey to China began in 1999...we traveled 16 months later in 2001!! Back then 16 months seemed like an outragious wait....one day for hungry and waiting children to wait, your children, mine is one day way too long!!! So we waited and waited. Our agency said waits had never been that long and they had no reason as to why referrals were taking 16 plus months....but, on July 13 2001 I met my sweet Mei...she turns 8 this summer. In 2004 we thought, whoa best begin paperwork now so we travel in close to two years....both of our first adopions were not special needs. We submitted our paperwork in March of 2004 and traveled for a "healthy baby girl".....SIX MONTHS LATER!!! We could NEVER predicted how long/short the wait would be, ONLY GOD KNOWS FOR SURE THE PLAN OF HIS ORPHAN HE LOVES SO DESPERATELY!!!

On our final adoption, we went special needs and received a true Miracle in the making through our daughter!!! She is named "Jadyn"...translates in Hebrew to God has heard....He truly did choose our daughters....all of them...they fit into my arms just right....they were meant to be ours and meant to be with us....if we had not have waited my arms would be so empty.

I plead, as the Mama of three beautiful blessings whose lives would be so very, very different had we all not "stayed the course" to not give into fear or frustration...dates or deadlines....please wait for your daughters.....please.

You will never ever regret holding the Hand of God through this wait...only He knows His timing!!!

I lurk because I do not have a blog, but, I also lurk because I understand the wait, I understand the uncertainty, and even though I know I will never board the plane to our beloved China with the anticipation of holding another sweet blessing I carry you and all those waiting or who have waited in my heart!!!

Hugs to you Kimberly,
Diane...Mama to Joe, Jen, Jana Mei(Maoming SWI,2001), Jadyn Hua(Shantou SWI, 2006) and JOY HUA(Yangjiang SWI, 2004)

Amy said...

I cry knowing how hard the wait is. I pray that something will change this enviorment, and that somehow the flood gates will break open. Until then I pray God blesses you and uses you to bless so many others who are also waiting.

Robin said...

AMEN!

Denise C said...

Kimberley,
You have the sweetest heart!!!!
I am so touched by this precious post!! Your daughter will be in your arms at just the most perfect time and it is then, that you'll know why the wait was the length that it was. Rest in HIM while you wait...and I'll lift you in prayer...faithfully!!
Hugs to you!

Dawn said...

What a wonderful and heartfelt post. We wait because we know that is God's plan for our life and our family. We will all be waiting with you until the day you hold Sophia in your arms.

(Yes, to the question you asked, and March would be fine. That is so nice of you. I have no idea how it works, so you'll have to fill me in when the time gets close.)

Blessings
Dawn

adele and dan said...

It's so difficult knowing the light at the end of the tunnel is there but so hard to see, so hard to find, so hard to hold. But we must hold on because the light is where our children are, they're waiting so patiently for us and us for them. God will lead us all to that light and we will have it forever. Waiting with you-Adele

Marla said...

Beautiful quote! My heart aches for those of you waiting, but I just know your days will come and those babies will be perfect for your families.

insanemommy said...

I love this. I may have to post this on my sidebar! We're all good over here.... Really.

Linda ★ Parker's General said...

For you, Kim, and for my daughter and for all those waiting for their precious children, I will post this and leave it there until I am too old to blog......

Kim said...

Hope your day was Wonderful..
Hugs to you my friend..