THE SEVENTH DIAMOND

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

My Princess...

I am very emotional right now. Anyone out there have this? I just think about my girl all of the time and what this experience is going to bring to her. I know how happy we will be and how terrified she most likely will be. I think about the past 3 years and all we have gone through, that is really just overwhelming. I am in a sort of auto mode. I am picking up the Z-Pack prescriptions and buying our gifts to bring and making sure we have enough things to keep the kids busy on the plane. But every once in a while I just look at her and have a good cry. After all of this time, my girl is coming home.

Our SW called yesterday to tell us that our gotcha day has been delayed. China wants us in country for a couple of days to make sure we don't have swine flu before they give Sophia to us. We were told the adoption is not being delayed, just that we will receive her a few days later than was originally planned. I hope that they get past this before we get there, but we will do what we need to do.

I like this photo because it shows what I believe is her bedroom and she has cute pink sheets and a little vanity by her bed. I am hoping she is happy where she is and that she will be happy here too.

37 comments:

Linda said...

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes for you... I am wanting time to fly by for you so you can have her in your arms. Know so many people are praying that this time flies by and you are united with Sophia Jane quickly and your family is complete.
Cannot wait to see that first picture.
Hold on, you are in for the time of your life!!! Linda

Isabella's Mommy and Daddy said...

She will be soooooo happy girly..
you are a wonderful Mommy.. and she will have an amazing Daddy and big brothers...
I am soooo excited..
Can not wait to see you with little Sophia Jane..
Hugs..
Love ya tons my friend...

Denise said...

Oh yes, I remember so well the emotions of that time. It feels surreal that it is actually happening. I am so excited for you~

Jewels of My Heart said...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh the emotions.... I was a total basket case! lol
I am sorry for the delay.... but soon my friend... very soon.
I am praying....
Love you,
Daleea

Margaret M said...

I so remember feeling the way you are feeling right before I left for China last year. I held him for the first time on this date last year. What a difference a year makes! I can't wait to follow your journey and to see her life change in so many wonderful ways!

Amy said...

Sophia Jane is going to feel so much love from her Mommy and Daddy and big brothers...she will be happy. You will all be happy together. You've waited so long. All of you have. Praying for the moment to soon arrive that you are in each other's arms and praying for a smooth and peaceful transition for Sophia Jane and her Forever Family. Hold on. Sunny days are ahead!

With Love and Prayers,
Amy

Truly Blessed said...

Yeah, I've been where you are now (emotionally). Let's face it, you're going to rock this little girl's world whether you want to or not...she won't understand at first, but eventually she will. You know that I am praying for all of you, and for Sophia's transition into your family. I know a lot of others are praying right alongside me.

Bummer about the delayed "gotcha" -- I'm right there with you on that, too. Originally we were told we'd meet Katie on November 5...then November 6...but we finally met her on November 7. Those two days were the longest of my entire life!

Still, the SWI or CCAA or governmental officials are right to do what they can to protect the children at the SWI.

My guess is you'll do the Great Wall without Sophia -- and that's probably not a bad thing -- Eli can run up the Wall and expend some energy, and you won't have to worry about carrying Sophia up!

I'm so anxious to see your sweet girl in GIRL clothes, with a bow in her hair!!!! I know you are too.

I also need to drop off those adaptors. When's the best time? I just can't believe you're going to be on an airplane in just a few days -- that is so awesome, and I'm just over the moon for you and your family!

a Tonggu Momma said...

Oh, wow. So close, yet each day feels like forever. I'll be praying for you. And (s)whining along with you!

Gail said...

Well, I've been right where you are in the same spot emotionally...the most nervous and emotional I've ever been were the time period before meeting G and W. I can't predict how the experience for her will be, what I do know is that you'll have endless patience, understanding and love. You also have prayers from so many people that her transition goes smoothly...I promise you that! I'm so happy for you all and can't wait to follow your journey.

p.s. you can email me anytime or even call me if you have questions...even from China!

Rachael said...

So excited for you! What a hopeful, joyful time this is for you. Have a GREAT trip.

thatgirlblogs said...

she is so smart, just look at those eyes. I adore her and wish she was here for a playdate with bennett and catherine.

thank you for writing what you're feeling. as the years pass I forget how exciting it was and it's important that I never lose my gratitude to God, China and just plain luck that these kids are here with me now.

I am beyond sorry that your gotcha date is delayed. I pray that will change and if not, that you will enjoy the days in China leading up to gotcha. It is a strange place, very unlike here but the kids want to know more and more about China as they get older and I'm glad I've been there.

Love to you and your sweetest girl.

Joanne said...

Oh, your Sophia is just a doll! She looks like she is being well cared for - I hope you will be blogging from China?!
Yes, your feelings are SO normal - it is being anxious, nervous, happy, scared and finding it hard believe it is all happening - all at once!

Kim K. said...

I'm just so anxious and excited for you to start this journey. It's life-changing and all for the good!!! Thank you for sharing it with all of us. Love ya!!

Janet said...

I totally get what you are going through. I cried ALL. THE. TIME. when I thought of finally getting A and J. Honestly, I think they were in shock and handled it well. Me? Well, mostly well. :-)

Lena Wright said...

She's beautiful-I'm so excited for you. And yes, I have felt that way too, and I'm not close to the end of my wait. I have been told by others that the waiting gets harder at the end-when you know it really is any day now soon......so you are not alone...

Hugs!

Mama Duck said...

I know that time has to be passing for you so slowly these days...hang in there!

You are so fortunate that you are going into this with your eyes open and the support of so many "been there done that" folks who have adopted toddlers. You are going to be a wonderful mother for little Sophia Jane, and nurture her and love her through what is sure to be a very difficult transition for her.

I'm praying for you!

Much Ado said...

This post made me tearful. Then I called in my husband to show him the post and photograph. Your Sophia is perfect for your family and you for her. I can't wait to see you TOGETHER!

Jonni said...

So excited for you my friend and your post is beautiful. Sophia is in Guandong right? I heard on RQ that there is some extra time you have to stay if you are going there. Good luck and Ican't wait to see Sophia Jane in your arms finally. :)

Hugs,
JOnni

The Things We Carried said...

I have been there! Oh my gosh, I prayed I would not have an accident in the waiting time because I was SO distracted after I saw my Jane. I was like a drunk woman. Giddy and totally unable to focus at all. I would be sitting at a stop light and realize it had turned green and have no idea how much time had passed. I would be talking and mid sentence be lost on what I was saying. I forgot things constantly. ALL I could (and honestly wanted)to think of was my girl in China nd how had every minute of her life gone as she was waiting.

That is why, perhaps I was SO instantly bonded. Instant! When I met her, in China, I had been think of NOTHING but her in any clear way. At last I could consume myself with the baby I had longed for. (oaky she was 19 mos, now she is 3.5 and she is still my BABY!)

Kim, not a day passes I can take her for granted. Really! Everyday I think I CAN'T believe God gave her to me. I asked another adoptive mom I am close to, if I would ever get over this drunk feeling of giddiness when I first came home. She said, at a year out she was still feeling it :). Jane has been home for two years and 2.5 months and I am still overwhelmed by God's plan to give us to each other.

I know this is long, but I am soooo happy for you to finally be in this place and I can't wait to see you in China with your GIRL :)!!

xxxx

The Things We Carried said...

PS I want to send you an outfit when you KNOW her size. After you are home. oh, and she is absolutely DARLING!

Doreen said...

WOW is she ever beautiful! This delay is just a tiny snag after all you've gone through. I know how disappointing it is but at least you'll be near her.

Doreen in Montreal single mom to Faith-Jiangxi & Mia-Sichuan

Patricia/NYC said...

Oh my goodness, do I remember those emotions like it was yesterday!! Every feeling you have right now is so part of the experience!!

Your sweet, sweet Sophie will be so extremely happy with her wonderful, loving forever family!!
I cannot wait to follow your dream come true journey!!

Faith, Hope, and Love said...

Oh Kimberley...you are just days...hours...from your beautiful Sophia Jane!!

I felt all of the exact emotions you are describing..all THREE times!!! The good news is that the first few days may be a little bumpy...but something magical happens on the 3rd day and the smiles and personality emerges. I think it will help a lot to have Eli there for her. Kids tend to feel safe around other children. Our agency was really pushing for us to take Lauren but I knew she could not handle the trip.

What a sweet photo of Sophia Jane sitting on her bed. She looks so content. I bet they were telling her that they were sending this photo to her new family. She looks very proud!

Try to soak up all you can of this amazing culture you are about to embark on. When you really want something and you question whether to buy it...the answer is YES! You will get home and regret it if you put it back. I've done that all 3 times as well. LOL The treasures you bring home will become more special as time passes. You can buy an extra suitcase that can be checked on Sophia's ticket for all of your China treasures.

And of course the most special treasure is waiting for her forever family! Sophia Jane is blessed to have you as her mommy!!!

I was noticing how shiny her hair is! I can't wait to see her wearing your bows. Have you packed one of each color? :)

Lap up this special time!!!

Love you!
Robin

Michelle said...

Oh, she is such a precious little girl. So, so beautiful!!

I so know what you mean about being emotional. I am an emotional wreck right now. Mostly a good wreck, but a wreck nonetheless... Everything gets so crazy and frantic these last few days.

We are going to be in Guangzhou June 27-July 1. Any chance we'll overlap?

Shay Ankerich said...

I am so praying for you as I type through my tears. I well remember how you are feeling! Bless you as you wait for the sweetest blessing ever!!!
Blessings,
Shay

Dita said...

I know that I am anxious for Sophia Jane to get here so I can only imagine how you are after 3 long years! That photo is precious of her. When I look at that photo I see the same things you spoke of but I also see her in 6 months from now...home with her family in the arms of her mother...with her hair grown out and blowing in the wind.....sitting in her own bedroom and sleeping safe and sound nestled between her own sheets tucked in with a kiss from her mom, dad and brother...safe and secure and ready to start another wonderful day!

You are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend......you crack me up...you are worried about my little hair bow...I got your email but my email isn't working down here in the D.R. although blogger is working just fine as you can see. I will go check out the other bows and choose another of your gorgeous creations...please don't think about it one more minute. I can wait until you get back if need be!

Sending you big hugs and hoping that you will keep yourself UBERoccupied until Sunday comes!

Dita said...

OK...I can get email in but none is going out so I will leave this here on blogger...I'd like the Butterfly Daisy if its still available. That would just be perfect!

Thanks so much, my friend!

Oatsvall Team said...

sister i will be praying for so much for you on this trip .... just know she is your daughter and that her heart may need some healing ... you get the honor of being the hands and feet of Jesus ... i love ya and am here if you need anything ...

Steffie B. said...

3 days.......3 DAYS!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

hugs,
Steffie

Keisha said...

I remember those emotions!! Just wait until your plane is landing in her Province. When ours did.. I just Cried and Cried! The people on the plane were like.. "what is wrong with that woman?" they were staring.. But, I didn't CARE! I was so soooo filled with emotions! I couldn't stop the tears!!!!!
Hugs!

Number 6 and no more counting! said...

I can't image what this must feel like for you.

extra hugs and love for you Kimberley.

Lea

Elisa...life as we know it. said...

I remember the emotion just waiting to get Zoe, you keep looking at the pictures and just wanting to get her now.
I remember just a week after the pics came my hubby was in the kitchen crying (he is going to kill me for this) and just holding Zoe's picture saying...I want to go now..let's just get on the plane.

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh yes...I remember the time before our girls were handed to us...very emotional BUT I really think it was good to get it out of my system because when they WERE handed to us I was peaceful, calm and very strong for them. I love you and can't wait to see her sitting on her new bed in her forever family's home.

Michelle said...

I know you are getting ready to leave and we still haven't rec'd our itinerary. I think our agency is booking us at the Victory in Guangzhou. I'm not sure how I feel about that, as I really liked the WS. Oh, well, we'll have our girl and all will be fine! I'll be checking in on your blog while we're in China and can communicate here, is nothing else. I hope to get to meet you and see your beautiful Sophia in person! I'll be praying for safe and healthy travels for you and all your fellow passengers.

Kris said...

I know your emotions NOW and will be praying you ALL the way to China and home. God she is SO precious Kimberly!

Love that I can get on your site right now (in Texas visiting family!)

MUCH love to you and your family and your precious little girl!!

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

Oh... what a sweetie... as for being put off a few days... they will get here... I am so super excited for ya...

Paula said...

She's beautiful! I'm excited for you.