THE SEVENTH DIAMOND

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

My Daughter is Alive this Christmas...

This is a very hard Christmas for me this year. We are in a place in our journey where I know my daughter is alive and I am pretty certain she is in her orphanage waiting. I cannot tell you how emotional I have been over this. The tears have just overwhelmed me. I pray that God sends angels to comfort her, I pray there is heat in her orphanage, I pray that somehow she knows she is loved. I pray she holds on. I pray that someone who passes by her feels the need to smile at her and hold her. I hope that a mother from somewhere has sent a box or left a donation with warm clothing and blankets so she has something to keep her warm. Everything feels wrong, I have her stocking but cannot hang it. I was too late to order her 3rd 'Waiting for Sophia' ornament, so now I have none. I have several Christmas dresses because I don't know what size she will wear and black patten Mary Janes..I was so certain she would be home this year.
I hope that from across the world, somehow she senses me....like I sometimes sense her.
I love you babygirl, hold on.

34 comments:

The Johnson Family said...

I know this journey is so hard on you heart. Hang in there I am praying for you along with so many others. I continue to pray for your sweet baby girl and just knowing God is always with her is comforting. I pray you will be united very quickly into the new year and your heart will feel whole again. Have a wonderful christmas.

Gail said...

Kimberley, My heart is with you. I know this journey has been hard and it's especially that way at Christmas time.You and your sweet Sophia Jane are in my prayers now and on going. I pray she is safe, warm, and loved. I pray that God gives her comfort and somehow tells her that her mommy is coming soon. 2009 WILL be your year, it will dear friend. Merry Christmas.

a big hug from me to you,
Gail

OH MY #6 said...

Extra hugs from me to you!

Lea
xo

Jill W said...

Kimberley,
Prayers for you & Sophia Jane. May you both feel the comfort from our Father. May you be united soon and may your heart be light. Hugs!!!

Truly Blessed! said...

My dear friend,

My heart aches with you at this time of year especially.

Hold on. Stay strong. Have faith.

And pray.

We are still praying for you, for sweet Sophia, and for your agency to match you quickly.

I hope to see you Christmas Eve at church (we're going to the 3:00 service) -- how about you?

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

This is a hard time of year when you are still waiting....my heart goes out to you!! I will pray that she is safe and warm.....and hoping that this is the last Christmas to be celebrated with out her!! Please let 2009 be your year!!

Merry Christmas to you and your sweet family!

Lisa

Anna Grace`s Jie Jie said...

I know how hard this journey is for you since I have been through it- But I promise when you hold that special miracle in your hands all the waits, worries and everything else will just disappear! Praying for you this Christmas......

Marla said...

Oh Kimberly, big hugs to you!! I pray with you that she is warm and knows in her heart that you are coming.

Merry Christmas!!

Kim Kenward said...

Please know that I'm thinking of you, Kimberely. May your 2009 be filled with peace, joy and happiness. Hugs.

Amy said...

Dear Mommy, your sweet girl only knows what she has now. It is all she knows. She is too young to understand there is so much more she is missing. I know it's very hard for you, but it probably is not hard for her. She is probably doing just fine. Family is not something she misses just yet. What she has is what she knows. It is you that needs to hold on. It will not be long now. You will have an extraordinary new year. All your tears will be wiped away. Your joy will be so full. She is alive and she will fill your arms and you will not have to imagine anymore. I'm sorry you have had to wait so long. I am certain that the long journey is just what it took to lead you to your perfect daughter! I will rejoice with you. I know it won’t be long now!

Kayce said...

Thinking of you Kim. Many hugs.

mom 2 many said...

I am thinking of you and praying for you and your precious baby girl waiting for you! Hang in there...
Merry Christmas and big hugs!!

Carol said...

I'm sure she feels your love!!!I prayed the same prayers and Emily was loved. I have photos of the nannies rocking her....keep strong...

Merry Christmas.........

Cupcakes and Hairbows are in China, they asked me to pass the word.

day by day said...

Oh...I so understand your feelings! I prayed for the same things while my girls were waiting for us...

Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas!!!!!

love,
Michelle

Kelley said...

I know that your tremendous love and prayers can reach all the way to China and wrap themselves around your little Sophia.

You'll have her home soon. Keep the faith!

Isabella's Mommy and Daddy said...

Holidays are the hardest time..
I know she will be home with you soon..
Hugs..
Love ya girly..
Have a Merry Christmas...

mommy2nikki said...

Just wanted to wish you and your family a merry christmas and a happy new year. Next year you will have your little girl with you, I know it.

kerri said...

Sending you a hug. I know this is so hard, knowing your daughter is waiting. I promise once you hold her in her your arms in 2009, all the pain will melt from your heart.
Merry Christmas and all the best in 2009

Lisa said...

I pray that you will meet her soon. This has been a very hard wait. But she will be in your arms soon.
xoxo
Lisa

Special K said...

I know how you feel. I'm also getting thru my 3rd Christmas since my paperwork was logged in. The holidays are really hard for those of us waiting. Really really hard.

Saying a little prayer for you. And one for me ,too. Hang in there. :)

Chelley said...

Are there words to easy your pain... No... Just the love and prayers of all those that love you and care for you... I pray you have a Merry Christmas...




and know that your day will come...

waitingarms said...

Hugs to you. Praying that you may feel the comforting arms of the master wrapped around you this Christmas season as you miss and yearn for your daughter.

Blessings.

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

Oh how I feel your pain... I feel the same way... hang in there... I will... that I know... have a great christmas... and thank you for the card... hugs to ya...

jennifer said...

Hang in there! Try to enjoy this Christmas with your boys. They will never be these ages again, and next Christmas, you'll have a little one to chase after!

I know it's hard.

Merry Christmas!!

thatgirlblogs said...

It has truly been so long -- too long. She is extra beautiful, extra special... HAS to be, since God is hand picking her for you and your family. I just pray for you all and hope it comes easily, soon, and all things fall into place.

Colleen said...

I know how hard this journey is and how much it plays on your heart. My son always told me to look up at the moon and stars and to know that my little one waiting for me see's the same moon and stars. I will pray that she is kept warm and loved. {{{hug}}}}

Margaret Miracle said...

Kimberley,
I just want to reach through the computer and give you a HUG! I cried all last year as we had just received our referral and now I had his face to look at and to think of. It was such a hard Christmas and I had so many of the same thoughts. I will pray for you and your daughter. Wishing you Peace and may your home soon be filled with the sound of her laughter.

Denise C said...

Bless ur heart sweet friend!!! I am keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers...and sending you extra special Christmas blessing!!!
Love u,
Denise

Steffie B. said...

Love you so much sweet girl....and I love it when I look at my phone and see that it is you calling....we'll get through this....I will not let you sway from the journey...I know your baby girl is waiting for you too....just lift her up daily to the Lord and He will provide all she needs until you can bring her home....

Merry Christmas sweet, sweet friend....love you dearly!

Hugs,
Steffie

Dawn said...

Oh my heart aches for you this Christmas. Last year we knew who our Lucy was and yet she waited...the hardest Christmas ever. I pray you will never have another Christmas without your daughter.

Merry Christmas to you and your family~

Jewels of My Heart said...

Oh, sweet Kimberley,
I do know the heartache you feel..... I felt it with Nicholas and with Hannah.... I too prayed the same prayers for my children.... now, on this Christmas night they are sleeping safely in their beds... He is faithful my friend....Jesus hears your prayers.... Your Sophia is resting safely in the loving arms of God and He will watch over her until He brings her safely home.... Our Father loves her even more than you do and He will keep watch over her....
God's Speed and Merry Christmas....
Soon He will give you the oil of joy for mourning.....

The Byrd's Nest said...

I know this is terribly hard and I felt the same way while waiting for Lottie except I know my wait wasn't even close to yours. Please know that I have not ceased in prayer for you my sweet friend. Big big Hugs.

Nikki said...

Praying with you for your sweet girl. I remember how emotional I was when I knew Lily was alive and "celebrating" her first Christmas in an orphanage without her family. I just prayed over and over that God would hold her until we could...

Waiting for Mia Hope! said...

I believe your Sophia is alive and well and waiting for her mommy. I also believe it will not be long. God knows your EXACT desire...He placed it there...He will fill that desire...brought to you thru "faith" and "hope" and "love"!
This journey is not an easy one...but its a rewarding one!

Love and Hugs!
Robin