Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Still Waiting...

A little blue today. It's starting to seem like a long time now. 16 months waiting after 9 months of paperwork. So many babes are coming home, but not one for us. My girlfriend who gave me all of her little girl clothes found out she has a new little princess on the way. I am happy for her truly, but it will be sad for me to fold up all of those clothes and give them back. My agency is an utter source of frustration. 16 months just to see the SN list when if we would have gone with any other, we would have been home with our child a year ago. Yes I have faith, it's just a hard day today. So I'm putting out my waiting picture....again...it was out a year ago as well.

37 comments:

OH MY #6 said...

oh dear. I feel for you friend. It will all unfold!

Lea
xo

Gail said...

Oh Kimberley, it will happen, it will and probably just when you least expect it. You are in my thoughts today.

Gail

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy said...

Keep your chin up girly..
The best things come to those who wait..
HUGS..
We will all have our little girls/boys one day soon..

Michelle said...

Kimberley,

I am so sorry that the waiting is so hard. I can only imagine! Hang in there!!!

nikki said...

I know you have faith, my friend...but that doesn't make the wait pain-free.
Allow yourself to be sad today. Write your feelings down for her...she'll be so touched someday to know how much her mommy longed for her!
Thinking of you. Waiting with you.

Walker said...

Hang in there... I know it's long.. but the end result is SOOO Worth IT!!! ;0)
Praying for you,
Keisha

3D said...

Hugs...I wish I had more to offer.

Keep smilin!

Amy said...

I'm so sorry. I still think you will have a photo of your child by Sept.

Ashley said...

Praying for you, dear one. May God wrap His loving arms around you extra tight today and may you rest in His presence, knowing that He has a plan and that He has already chosen your daughter!

Special K said...

I'm so sorry. It is truly sad to have this love in your heart and not know the child on the other end of it. Sending a hug your way.

ThatGirl said...

excellent music today...

spending some time in prayer for you today.

Alyson & Ford said...

Peace is hard to find when the heart is aching. Mine and Aly's words carry small comfort but know that our hearts carry your dreams along with our own...
peace
fm

Hopingforsix said...

Thinking so much of you. Wish I knew a magic thing to say...

Kelley said...

Hang in there, friend! It's OK to have a sad day...

k1 said...

hugs, Kimberley.

Denise C said...

Oh sweet friend...I am keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers today! May God pull you up real close to HIM....and may you feel HIS perfect peace in an indescribable way today!
Love you,
Denise

mom 2 many said...

You are in my prayers today.
Don't worry, when it is YOUR time,
I'll send you all my baby girl stuff!!

Hugs

April said...

One thing I have finally learned is it is okay to have a bad day during out journeys. Cry and cry out to the Lord! I will be praying extra for you today.

Jeff and Amy said...

Sorry your feeling down, the wait definatley is a rollercoaster of emotions, hang in there and hugs.

jennifer said...

I know it's hard. I am feeling pretty down myself. We just have to trust that God will bring our daughters to us in His perfect timing. It stinks though. I'm sorry you have to give the clothes back. I know that's hard.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry. Some days are like that for me too. My husband and I just came through a month of serious discussion about switching to the SN program and we learned two things. One is that he is not completely on board with that idea. And two is that our agency works differently than others and the SN list actually has a much longer wait than the non SN one. So I guess we'll just wait. Sigh.

Janet said...

Thinking of you, and praying for you, friend. May God grant you His amazing strength. Sigh. I wish I could give you a hug!

LaLa said...

{{HUGS}} sweetie. Believe me, I know where you are coming from. I constantly second guess my decisions about our agency too and it is so hard some days. We both will have our little ones in our arms....

Sorry about the baby clothes..I know you are celebrating with your friend but it is so hard sometimes (Like when I hosted two baby showers this weekend..)

Thinking of you!

Waiting for Mia Hope! said...

That is such a beautiful photo! Where do you find these things?? Kimberley, I'm sorry you're having a bad day. 16 months is a very long time to hold a place in your heart for that special someone. Go ahead and have a good cry...then pick yourself up...brush yourself off... and keep going! Sophia is waiting for you down the road...and it may be a LONG road...but she IS there! "HOPE"...don't let go!!! I hope tomorrow brings a brighter day my friend! Love and hugs!

Patricia/NYC said...

Hang in there, sweet friend!! I can't imagine how hard this wait has been for you. It's OK to be blue about it & it helps to get those feelings out. I'm sending you a BIG ol' fashioned NYC bear HUG to you right now!

It WILL happen & when it does, boy oh boy will it be PERFECTLY WONDERFUL!!!!
HANG IN THERE!!
xoxo
Patricia/NYC

Chelley said...

The waiting sucks...
but years from now you will be able to look back and this time will all be erased! As you will be so busy runing around keep up with your little one!

Roy and Lori said...

I hope something will
soon happen for you
guys! Prayers and hugs!

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

I hear you sister... tons of hugs to ya cause I feel a little the same of late... all good things come to those who wait... take care

Colleen said...

I'm sorry your wait is taking forever. Hang in there {{{hug}}}.

I know you asked me for some books and I will get my list together for you.

Steffie B. said...

You know that I understand your pain my friend.....we'll get through this...perhaps another lunch at our favorite resturant is in order! ;) With our hot waiter of course! lol ;)
Hugs.....let's also set a date for you to come out to our house soon!

Mardi said...

I saw your comment on Doris' post and ran over here give you a hug. I'm sorry... the wait, the packing up the little clothes you had different plans for, I'm sorry you're hurting. Your blog has been an inspiration and has changed so many lives that you will never know about. Someday, as you know, this will all be worth it. THE girl who was created for you will be in your arms.

Hang in there. love ya,

mardi

Much Ado said...

Oh Kim, my heart aches for you....I know how hard it is to wait...I saw on RQ that a lot of agencies are saying Jan 07 is through review. i don't know if that means the box is changed officially or not though. For your sake I really hope so. Praying for you.

Kayce said...

Hang in there friend. You are not alone. If you need anything, just holler!

LINDA said...

I understand your anxiety. You are the support of so many other people. It is overwhelming. You are so strong and God has such a special plan for you. It will happen and you will be so happy. You will smile all the time and you will still be helping everyone that comes to you for help.
Never give up....

Jewels of My Heart said...

Oh Honey, big hug to you....... I do understand how your heart breaks.... I know how it can feel so overwhelming and hurt so deeply..... but I also know that as much as you love the children... as much as you are doing to help the children.... you are on a journey to bring YOUR child home.... not just any child... but the precious child that Jesus created to be your daughter. I know that you wouldn't want to leave YOUR child stranded somewhere.... so... you will be strong... day by day and the days you feel too weak to continue... He will carry you through. And one day SHE will be in her Mama's arms......
We are here for you friend...
God's Speed,
Daleea

Sharie said...

I don't even know what to say to all of you who've waited so long to meet your little ones. Everything seems to small...Hoping you see the face of your daughter soon.
Sharie

Jonni, John & Sofia said...

I am so sorry honey. I can understand how frustrated you are. I really think that Sophia Jane will be home soon. I have a feeling that their is a referral headed your way very soon. I am thinking about you and prating for a speed up.

Hugs,
Jonni